I have been sleeping late everyday for the past week just to cope with stupid school projects that have been building up for the past month.

Marketing Project - Almost done mehn!!!
English Paper - :P

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*9 Months. :) <--- Buti na lang pinaalala saakin ni Ayen kanina. =))
Or else I would've forgotten. (As if.) :))

I really like what you've done to me, I can't really explain it, i'm so into you. :)

Mood: Masaya. Coolness talaga ang buhay.
Music: Public Affair - Jessica Simpson

Dahil sa blog ni Bea Lobaton, eh naging LSS ko tuloy ang public affair. Ayoko yung singer pero I like the song coz' its catchy.. I gotta get the mp3 copy of that... pati rin pala yung London Bridge ni Fergie.

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Jive for Five. GO USTe TIGERS!. :) Winners nanaman ang USTe sa annual cheering competition ng UAAP. Grabeh. Nanghihinayang ako at wala ako dun sa Araneta in person.. Pero kahit na sa isang maliit na kahon lang ako nanonood eh, I can still feel my adrenalin pump habang pinapalabas ang routine ng USTe at yung ibang magagagaling na schools.

Congrats to the SDC and sa YJ.. and to the whole Thomasian community. :D
Black gold black white go fight fight fight.

GO USTe. :D

We (BA5 group) finally got to meet at M.Lo's house to fix our Marketing Plan. I am glad that everybody came and everybody was very cooperative about this. I thought at first that she would not be going because she'd rather be with her boyfriend or that if she went, she wouldn't do anything at all and she's gonna be OP (out of place) when we start talking about our Markstrat and other things.

I kept on reminding her about this for the past few days and I did really expect that she's a no-show.

She came. :) I'm glad that she did. She had a lot of ideas, mind you.
She's not the weird girl that you think she is.. Well she's weird alright but she's not all weird. Gets?

And the OP thing wasn't such an issue. During our meeting at the oval table at M.Lo's house, she was talking and giving us ideas about how our Markstrat should go and she was able to relate to us as much as we could relate to her.

I'm sorry for being the assume-ra that I am and for being mean for expecting her to not to come. I am really thankful that she's a part of our group.

But I really do have to admit that Weird minds work in wondrous ways. :P

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Of lies and words that should not have been verbally said.

I would just like to apologize to all the people whom I have been saying or whom I have said not-so-nice-words behind their back.

Backstabbing (as defined in Dictionary.com --> To attempt to discredit (a person) by underhanded means, as innuendo, accusation, or the like.) became a habit of mine during my highschool days because everyone seems to be doing it. (Yes. My highschool's culture is different than yours. So you can't really blame me.)
I knew that it was wrong but I kept on doing it since I knew a handful or even more has been backstabbing me about my weird-ness, childish-ness, kasungitan-ness, attitude, my unsocialite-ness, my fashion statements and whatever that may come into mind that these people may not like about me. Being the child that I am, I tend to fight fire with fire. And obviously say bad things about people I don't really like or I don't "feel".

Yes, I should've confronted these people but I didn't bother anymore because they were a lot and I didn't really care if they liked me or not for being me because I am not that concerned about being popular or for not being liked by the majority for being myself. And most of all, I do not plan to be a doormat for these people. I would never ever change for anyone but for me and me alone. (Well for those people I love too. But that's a different story.)

I hated backstabbers.. But I kept on backstabbing them anyway.. So it turns out that not only am I a backstabber, but I'm also a hypocrite. Which is worse, right?. Sha made me realize this; In order for people to stop saying things about me, maybe I should stop and think and look at myself first. My mean side got the better of me though. The habit never stopped until I graduated from highschool.

I'm glad that when I finally got to College, my habit (little by little) started to diminish through the influence of my really good friends. At first I got shocked because since I had this idea that they were used to backstabbing and all that crap, and they knew that what I said was true, I thought that they would agree with what I said about this certain person (that I don't remember who) and that they would say their opinions regarding about that person..
But they were very un-biased. They were able to let me see both sides of the argument. Being the rational persons that they are, they just said that "intindihin mo na lang kasi baka may problems siya." So there. I realized that I should really leave the backstabbing thing in highschool.

I was trying to be rational when it comes to people annoying me and stuff. But the thing is, since I was.. or am very childish, I tend to be pikon. And when provoked, I tend to be more physical rather than to fight back with words or just ignore them and go on with my life.

I actually regret being the person that I was in highschool. I will always be remembered as the girl who is hated-because-of-her-actions. But it did help me grow. I used all the criticisms, constructive or not, to patch up all my errors in the past. Maybe I just needed a new environment because I know for a fact that I changed myself so that I would be more like-able in College. The thing is, people tend to label people. Especially in higshchool. If you are a cheerleader, varsity, or whatever, *poof* instant popularity. But if you're a deviant... well, you'll be discriminated for being one. I was already labelled. So no matter how hard I tried to change myself, people will forever be under the impression that I am like this or that.

Anyway. Back to the topic, I'm not saying that I have finally gotten rid of that habit since I don't want to lie. Haha.. :P But it did lessen now(when compared to highschool)... trust me. ;)

Wala lang.

I know for a fact that some people still hate me for what or who I am. And I do know that they say not-so-nice things behind my back.. So if you're one of them, here's the deal. I don't give a damn about what you say.
People like you are insecure, self-centered, insensitive losers. Got that?

"/f you Love me, or Hate me, I don't really care. Either way, I'm acknowledged."
"I won't change for you. I don't need you to like me anyway"
"I'd rather be disliked for being myself than to be loved for being someone that I'm not."

AND.... "Imitation is the best form of flattery." ;)

Ciao.

(I would like to apologize to those who were affected dun sa original entry ko dapat today. I do thank her for telling me and I'm really sorry ulit.:)

Hay thank God.. Nakaraos din sa Chacha.. :)
I love group 5! :) Nakabawi na din tayo at last. ;)

Tango naman next week.

Mood: Super happy. :)
Music: Sway - Pussycat Dolls

"When we sway I go weaaaak.. "

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We (2nd year of AB) had our annual reco kanina.. It was super fun and it wasn't your typical type of recollection na tahimik and bawal tumawa or whatever. Haha. Nasanay ako sa reco ng OB na nakaupo lang tapos may pinapasagutan na mga papel-papel. Nakakatuwa yung regent ng AB and yung isang speaker na ang hilig mag joke. :)
Kala ko kagabi aantukin lang ako.. Eh buti naman pala hindi. :)

Anyway, I'm really glad na naka-pag confession na ko kanina. :) I feel so angelic today..
No seriously. HAHA. :)

Buhay kolehiyo.

Mood: Tired.
Music: Falling Star - Moony

She was kind of wondering how to catch a falling star.

Grabe.. September nanaman. Before we know it, new year nanaman at magsisimula nanaman ang 2007.

Pero bago tayo makadating sa year 2007, masisiraan muna ako ng bait...
Hindi ko alam kung ano gagawin ko sa sobrang dami ng load ng projects sa iba-ibang subjects namin. Ang hirap pala mag communication arts. Pero mahal ko ang kursong ito.. Dahil hindi ako mapupunta dito kung wala naman talagang rason ang Diyos para ilagay ako sa kinatatayuan ko ngayon.

May isang prof pa kami na feeling major at kung ano-anong projects ang ni-rerequire niya saamin.. Hello. Di lang naman siya yung subject namin. Grabe.

- Marketing (++ the whole Market your product stuff.)
-- Pero I love marketing naman.. Kaya medyo enjoy siya gawin kahit mahirap. -- May reporting pa ko dito.

- Filipino
-- Analyzation Papers + Quizzes + Something that will happen in October na hindi ako sure kung ano dahil hindi ako nakikinig. >:)

- English
-- Goodluuuuck! Compare and Contrast paper. :((

- Nat Sci, Math, History, Computer
-- More activites and quizzes. GRABEH.

- Social Dance
-- Bumuo at magmemorize ng choreo for a 3 minute song in one week.

May NSTP pa and AA. :)) Cool.

September will be hell for most of the sophies na CA..
Good luck batchmates.. Kaya natin to. :)

Random Thought: Excited na ko magkaroon ng subject na TV Prod and Photography and Desktop Publishing.. Kaya lang yung downside ng TV Prod, kahit 3 times a week ka lang papasok sa school, feeling mo, parang 7 days a week kang pumapasok dahil sa shooting and everything else that goes with it.

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May nabasa akong blog. Pero di ako nagaassume na related sa nabanggit ko na dream nung isang araw (August 27 entry). Pero the funny thing is, may nakasulat sa entry ko na yun na nakasulat din sa blog niya. And parang feeling ko talaga; yung entry niya, it's indirectly related to me although I believe that it was just a coincidence..
Pero parang lately, nakakakita ako ng bagay-bagay na related sa panaginip ko na yun ah. Weird.

Is it coincidence? Or am I just being too paranoid? Haha. :)
Ciao everyone.